The letter i hope you never read because i'm hide something

Hi there,

I too suffer about this,
i'm think if i'm don't write it down,
i'm will getting crazy about it.
Sarah,
what i'm wanna to tell you is,
i'm think i'm got some weird feeling on you.
Do you remember that,
when you tell me gonna to start a relationship,
my heart was pain when i'm knew it.

Hidden msg: If you finally figure out why i'm din't update blog anymore, just because i'm don't hope to made our friendship broke, that is the only thing we left, i don't hope we can't even be friend.. I'm feel sad and sorry to made this decision, Sigh..

I'm not better then him that i'm was know,
I'm may can't give you what he did,
I'm may can't give you what he have,
But i'm will try to do better and better.

I'm not sure you know about i'm always telling you that "second chance",
actually the deeply meaning is,
i'm quite hoping that i'm got the second chance to ask you be my girl-friend.
Maybe it's too late right now,
but i'm still hoping to trying to get the chance,
i'm was wasted too much chance to tell you,
because i'm worry what if you know it and can't accepted.
I don't want to make you suffer,
that why i'm keeping this secret and waiting the better timing.
You tell me that before,
said about your best friend trying to court on you.
I'm know you feeling at that moment,
i'm knew you was hard feeling to do the decision.

You know when u find me,
i'm was happy,
i'm feeling lucky at that moment,
even i'm know that is just a short time u will stay contact with me,
but i'm still feeling happy that.
But when you disapear without any notice,
you know what i'm feeling that time?
I'm feel that i'm just like a abandon puppy.
This few day i'm feel happy,
in the same time i'm also feel scare,
i'm worry about when you will drop me alone again without any notice.

I'm feel lonely,
i'm don't know what i'm suppose to do.
I'm worry that i'm will hurting you,
so i'm choose to hurting myself.
I'm hope this letter can read by you with accidently,
when you read that,
please, with my begging,
just give me an answer.

Sarah, i'm got weird feeling on you.
I'm not sure is love you or like you,
just if got a day,
if i'm surely figure out,
I'm hope is still not too late to telling you,
Sarah, dumb2, i'm think, I Love You.

The letter i'm hoping you will read in future,
By Kenny, Sei Lord. 16th October 2013.