完结.. Ending..

踏入十一月的最后一天，
我生日的最后时刻，
这个月对我来说，
发生很多很多事情，
但让我觉得该长大了，
以前我很怕负责任，
但是现在得学习承担。
Today is the last day of November,
the ending moment of my birthday,
this month for me,
was happen alot alot,
but let me felt that should grow up,
last time i'm fear to take responsible,
but i'm knew i'm has to take it now..

人类总爱追求太多，
烦恼也会因此产生，
所以我得学会放开，
有些事情你抓太紧，
不但伤害自己，
还会伤害别人，
所以要学会隐藏。
Human like to hold something not belong to,
then will also cause the trouble,
so must learn how to let it go,
something if hold too tight,
not only will hurting self,
also will hurt somebody else,
so must learn how to hide your emotion..

好了，
十一月快要结束了，
所以总得重新开始，
不管将来会怎样，
我都得提起勇气去面对，
如果我自己都不解决，
怎么还能期待别人帮我，
没有人有义务帮助自己。
Okay le,
the November gonna finish,
so i'm must restart my life,
no matter what gonna happen,
i'm has to handle with brave,
if i'm can't handle with self,
how could i'm expect people helping me,
no one has the responsibility to help me..

最后祝福自己，
生日快乐嗯，
要爱自己，
希望今年的愿望全部成真，
晚安了，
所有爱我和我爱的人，
谢谢你们让我度过一个美好的生日。 =)
At the last wish self,
Happy Birthday Fool,
need to love self,
hope all my wish become true,
so Good Nited,
to everyone love me and the people i'm love,
thank you so much for let me passed a wonderful Birthday.. =)

Night 23:44,
Page 17-01,
by Kenny Yht..

生日快乐.. Happy Birthday..

我生日啦，
开心涅~
因为有妳和所有人的祝福，
所以这个生日我很开心，
真的哦~ =P
Yea here my birthday come,
happy nia~
Because got wish from you and all the friend,
i'm feel very happy for this year birthday,
really ohh~ =P

今年的生日愿望嗯，
第一愿爸妈和亲人身体健康，
第二愿所有的朋友幸福快乐，
第三 - 不能说哦~
对了我要外加一个愿望，
希望妳身体健康和快快乐乐~ =)
Wish of this year birthday enn,
first i'm wish Dad and Mon and all my family member healthy,
second i'm wish all my friend happiness forever,
third one - can't say one~
Ohh yea the extra wishing was,
hope you healthy and happy forever~ =)

妳病了哦，
为什么那么坏蛋，
跟着我一起生病，
一定没有好好照顾自己，
记得喝多点水，
休息多点啦，
还有别吃那么多煎炸，
嗯我要睡咯，
晚安和祝妳发个很美好的梦~ =)
Knew you were sick again,
why so bad no take care,
and follow me sick,
must be din't take care self nicely,
remember drink many water,
and rest well lahh,
and don't you eat the fried food again,
enn and i'm going to bed lorhh,
Good Nited and wish you have a sweet2 dream~ =)

Thx Q all my friend,
and your gift,
i'm like it,
will keep it nicely,
Good Nited =)

Midnight 04:55,
Page 17,
by Kenny Yht..

靠近.. Near..

距离还要三个小时，
我就踏入二十五岁，
人说二十五岁，
是每个男生的转折点，
那好吧，
从明天开始，
我就不再是男孩，
要成为男生了！ =)
Still left 3 hours,
i'm going step into my 25th year of life,
people said that every 25th year old,
it the time for every boy to man,
okay bah then,
started from tomorrow,
i'm not longer is a boy,
i'm wanna be a MAN! =)

不知道等下可以收到多少祝福，
好久都没收过生日礼物了，
爸妈问说送我电话好吗？
但是我觉得不太好，
男生要就自己买！
Hope later don't so less wishes,
long time din't accept any gift liao,
Dad and Mon asking me what if they buy me a phone,
but i'm not feel really wan't that,
MAN will buy themself if they wan't!

今年我的生日愿望很简单，
就是家人身体健康，
朋友们幸福快乐，
还有一个不能说，
但是今年我想再加一个，
就是不会因为我而不开心~ =)
好了，
准备迎接我的生日吧，
生日快乐！笨蛋！
This year my wish was simple,
is that my family healthy,
all my friend happiness forever,
and one more wish is - secret,
this year i'm hope to plus one,
is that don't feel unhappy because of me~ =)
Okay,
prepare for my birthday bah,
Happy Birthday! Fool!

Night 21:20,
Page 16,
by Kenny Yht..

作践.. Hurt self..

清早起身发现喉咙痛，
是我昨晚太夜睡吗？
还是我近来太过有问题？
我不知道，
希望自己快点好起来吧。
Notice i'm sick when wake up in morning,
is it i'm sleep too late last night?
Or i'm really drop in trouble period time?
I'm don't know,
hope can cure as fast i can..

听朋友介绍所以看了刀剑神域，
原来还挺不错的，
第三集勾起当初我们游戏时，
那些好笑的回忆涅，
当初我是好像主角那样保护妳们吗？
好像不是吧，
我没他那么帅气和强.. =P
Friend intro me an anime - Sword Art Online,
that is a not bad anime sia,
the episode three remind the memories when our gaming,
that funny part of memories neh，
did i'm protect you guy like the Kirito did?
sound like not bah,
i'm not strong and handsome as him.. =P

病了休息就会好了，
心病时间久了也会好，
我能做到忘记对妳的感觉吗？
如果可以那就好了，
因为如果可以的话，
我已经不会再爱人了.. =)
Sick will be cure after rest,
Sick of heart also will cure if the time was passed,
can i'm forget the feel on you?
If could that will be prefect,
because if can done that,
i'm will no longer to loving other people anymore.. =)

Time will cure someone,
what if you no much time,
who you will wish to remember forever?

Night 21:15,
Page 15 - 01,
by Kenny Yht..

我..？ Me..?

今天心情非常复杂，
早上起的很早，
知道今天又有点想妳，
其实我不是不知道，
妳对我算很好了，
但是我却不肯听妳的，
有时我觉得很对不起妳，
有时我觉得对不起自己。
Today i'm feel very complicated,
awakened very early,
knew that i'm miss you again,
actually i'm knew that,
you treat me was very good,
but i'm never follow what you said,
sometimes i'm feel sorry to you,
sometimes i'm feel sorry to self..

朋友为我准备了生日，
但是我却开心不起来，
因为我知道我想的是妳，
我期待着妳的祝福，
我知道自己很自私，
为了自己却不为妳着想，
我知道妳在乎我感受，
所以我把自己搞得不开心，
我也不知道为什么。
Friend prepare a birthday dinner for me,
but i'm can't arting i'm happy at all,
because i'm knew i'm miss you,
i'm waithing your wishing,
i'm knew i'm selfish very,
all i'm think just for self and never for you,
i'm knew you care about me,
that why i'm made self unhappy,
i'm don't know why i'm did this..

距离生日越来越近，
也怕希望变成奢望，
我知道妳珍惜友情，
但是我不想再骗妳，
这几年我假装很花心，
其实我从没对别人动心过，
我知道妳对我没感觉过，
现在不会有，
将来更不会，
但是我真的不能控制自己，
我不管做什么，
都会无缘无故想到妳，
我知道妳看后会不开心，
但是我希望妳明白，
傻子心里怎么想，
因为傻子想哭，
却没有肩膀可以靠，
如果我是长大了，
也许我应该学习孤单吧。
My birthday was near,
i'm fear the hope become fake,
i'm knew you treasure our friendship,
but i'm don't wan't to lie on you,
i'm pretend kao lui everytimes,
but i'm never do and feel on other at all,
i'm knew you never feel on me,
not now,
and not will happen in future also,
but i'm cant control self,
no matter what i'm doing,
will made me think all about you,
i'm knew after you read will feel unhappy,
but i'm hope you to know,
what this fooler thinking,
this fooler wanna to cry,
but there is no more shoulder to rely on,
if i'm wanna grow up,
i'm need to learn face lonely alone..

When dinner,
friend said something,
this is not me,
i'm feel,
who am i and,
what am i before now?

I'm miss the day dummy n ah moi give suprise to RaRe..
Most happiness memory but that not gonna happen..
Because RaRe did something hurt both..
He no longer can be back who he was..
Sigh, miss you =')

Midnight 03:15,
Page 15, 
by Kenny Yht..

为何.. Why..

又再梦见了妳，
已经记不清第几次了，
我的生活完全毁了。
Dream of you again,
i'm already forgot how many time,
my life totally destroy..

离开告诉妳我喜欢妳已经一月多，
为什么还不可以放下，
过去当妳不开心，
我会想尽办法去哄妳，
现在我真的很不开心了，
为何就没人哄我呢？
Happened a month that i'm told you my feel,
why i'm can't still just let it go,
when you unhappy last time,
i'm will try all the way made you smile,
what if i'm was feel unhappy,
why there is no one could made me ='(?

我的不开心，
能告诉谁呢？
每个人都叫我放弃，
我非常明白，
可是谁又了解，
真的做不到，
我很想很想妳，
很怀念以前妳关心我，
又有谁明白我的心情，
我只喜欢妳，
我只想有个人拥抱，
我不想也不要再爱了爱了。
All my sadness,
who i'm could tell?
Everyone just ask me to let go,
i'm knew that clearly very very much,
just no one understand that,
it's hard done for me,
i'm really miss you so much,
i'm miss the day you care me very much,
but who understand my feel beside self,
you're the one that let me feel different,
i'm just need a hug,
i'm can't and don't wan't to love anymore..

My feel,
is never know by other,
same like i'm don't know your before,
no one can feel other person feeling,
because you can imaging his feel,
but not his truly feel,
all you can just stack your into him..

Since i'm plan no care anything else,
the wheel of pain,
is start rolling,
i'm knew it's joke,
because a fool trying to ignore,
someone his take her as the one..

Sorry for this blog,
my feel was terrible bad today,
i'm sorry for everything..

Morning 08:50,
Page 14,
by Kenny Yht..

我爱.. I'm Loving..

早上起来时，
梦到了妳，
所以今天过得不好，
总觉得心情烦闷，
真的很想就这样离开，
不写部落格，
不再关心一切，
离开这个地方。
In the morning,
dream of you again,
so today i'm knew not a good day,
feel very emo today,
i'm really hope just leave like that,
no more blogger,
no more care anything about,
leave this place forever..

想起一个问题，
就是我到底能爱吗？
我曾被批评不能爱人，
因为我爱自己多于爱人，
我是一个自私的人，
只会围绕自己思考，
是否以后我不爱任何人，
我就可以不再伤害人？
我到底是一个什么人？
A question appear to my mind,
it's i'm can love someone else?
I'm was been criticism can't love someone,
i'm love self more then the people i'm loving,
i'm just a selfish person,
that thinking only self,
is it i'm don't loving anyone else,
that i'm won't hurt other people anymore?
What kind of person i am?

朋友说我，
你就别想她了啦，
越想你就越难受，
我明明知道，
但是却做不到，
真是一个大白痴。
Friend was saying me like that,
you really need to stop thinking it,
more you think just will more suffer,
i'm knew that clearly,
just i'm can't done it,
i'm really is a bigger fool in the world..

Left four more day,
that should be the day of i'm born to world,
if there got a time machine,
i'm hope there is no ME..

Night 20:13,
Page 13,
by Kenny Yht..

梦见.. Dream of..

在一条漆黑的通道里，
有一个我熟悉的声音，
那声音告诉着我，
往前走吧，
如果要摆脱痛苦。
In a tunnel with the dark,
a voice i'm knew,
the voice telling me that,
keep moving,
if you wan't escape from pain..

妳看着我，
微笑着对我说，
为什么要这样，
我说，
我很想妳，
你说，
我也是。
You looking at me,
smiling and telling me,
why wan't do this,
i'm said,
i'm miss you very much,
you said,
yea me too..

我以为自己正在放下，
因为我没特别去想妳，
原来我在欺骗自己，
命运总爱愚弄人，
当我以为放下，
妳其实活在我心里，
为何我总把事情搞砸，
伤害自己也伤害妳。
I'm though already let go,
because i'm not allow to think of you,
but i'm just lying to self,
fate always fooling me,
when i'm though i'm was let it go,
actually i'm just hide you in heart,
why i'm always mess it up,
hurting self and hurting you too..

Dream of you again,
no tears but feel sad..

Morning 06:55,
Page don't exist,
by Kenny Yht..

今天.. Today..

今天没什么发生，
就想平时那样，
时而想妳时而不想，
可能故意把自己搞得很忙吧。
Hmm today was nothing happen,
just like the normal day,
sometimes think of you sometimes not,
maybe this the effect of made self keep in busy..

离生日越来越靠近，
对妳的思念就越强烈，
原本希望今年的生日，
邀请妳陪我一起度过，
但是都只是自己想太多，
不敢让自己再看妳的一切，
怕自己又会胡思乱想，
到底我想怎样呢？
More close to my birthday,
the feel of miss you was more strong,
had though birthday of this year,
invite you pass with me together,
but all of this just i'm thinking too much,
dare not let self to see everything about you,
worry to made self think much,
what i'm hope to do..?

是的我今天想妳了，
和平时一样想妳了，
我就是无法忘记妳。
Yea today i'm was miss you also,
just like the normal day i'm did,
i'm just can't forgot the feel..

Sigh..
Even know what i'm seek for,
it's just a illusion,
but can't control self to step out..
Human.. always is the weak..

Night 23:10,
Page 12,
by Kenny Yht..

不对.. Something Wrong..

没梦到妳，
没特别想起妳，
一觉到天亮，
但是好像觉得有什么不对，
虽然平时对妳的感觉时有时无，
但是今天感觉很不对，
不是不想妳了，
而是产生一种默默想妳的感觉，
不知道怎么形容这种感觉，
就很奇怪弄到我很纳闷。
Din't dream of you last night,
din't miss you very much,
sleep until sun raise,
but feel something wrong,
normally will miss you and sometimes won't,
but today was totally wrong,
not din't miss you at all,
is miss you with a quite weird feeling,
i'm don't know how explain that feeling,
just weird and made me feel puzzled..

我到底在做什么，
妳对我说得非常明白，
为何我就是不愿意放开，
把妳当成真正的朋友？
这到底为了什么，
我要这样伤害着妳和我，
脑海不断浮起妳写的信，
距离我的生日越来越近，
我就越来越容易想起，
妳今年为我准备一份难忘的礼物，
但我却让妳失去一位好朋友，
把礼物放进之前弄给妳的礼物之旁，
仿佛觉得我很傻，
为了妳我做出那么多傻事。
What i'm doing,
you made me very clear,
why i'm just can't let it go,
take you as a friend?
All of this about what,
why i'm wanna hurting both of us,
my mind keep remind me the letter you wrote,
when my birthday was near,
i'm more easy to think about,
this year you gave me a great present,
but i'm made you lost a best friend ever,
put the gift beside the present i'm made you before,
let me feel that i'm was really very fool,
i'm did all the foolish thing for you..

感觉很不好，
想偷偷去看妳脸书，
看下妳最近过的好不好，
却不敢这样做，
这样只会让自己无法自拔，
到底什么是爱一个人，
原来双方开心就可以了，
只是那么简单，
我无法爱妳，
因为我都让妳感觉痛苦，
今天我真的很想念妳。
Feel very bad,
i'm feel wanna reading your facebook quietly,
but dare not to do that,
there will just made me feel more bad,
what exactly is loving some person,
actually just both of they happy that enough,
just that simple,
but i'm can't did that,
because all i'm give you was suffer,
i'm sorry but i'm really miss you very much today..

My life was dark without you,
I'm trying to made it colourful,
Since you out of my life,
Sun was also gone from my life..

You're the colourful rainbow of my life,
Only that will made my life prefect,
Until my life was finished..

Afternoon 1607,
Page 11,
by Kenny Yht..

寂寞.. Lonely..

今天我小妹毕业了，
去了她学院观礼，
看到她矮矮的身影，
穿着那大大的毕业袍，
感觉很温馨，
内心却苗起妳的身影，
真是百感交杂。
Today is graduation of my beloved sister,
went to her college and go to the ceremory,
looking of her short2 body,
wearing the big2 graduation robe,
feel very warm,
but you appear into my mind,
really feel a lot in mind..

一个人思考一个问题，
如果我是爱妳，
我应该照你所说，
放下所有然后做回朋友，
但是不可能是如今，
因为我知道我是对妳有感觉，
如果我假装没事，
最后我还是放不开，
毕竟现在我是伤害了妳和我。
I'm was thinking some thing,
if i'm was really love you,
i'm should follow what you're saying,
let it go and be friend again fresh,
but impossible be right now,
i'm knew feel on you right now,
if i'm pretend nothing,
at the last i'm still can't let go,
After all i'm still hurting both of us..

我知道妳很想帮助我，
但是这不是适合的时候，
因为妳对我好，
反而让我觉得很难释怀，
有时候我会很想妳，
但是我都尽量的控制，
虽然一直寻找朋友倾诉，
但是好像没什么帮助，
也去换了一个新发型，
希望有一个新的开始，
当有一天我不再想念妳，
就是我们从新当朋友的时候。
I'm know you hope to help me,
but this is not really a good time,
because when you treat me good,
will made me feel more hard to let go,
yea i'm will miss you always,
but i'm must trying to control self,
although i'm always find friend to release my feel,
but it's look like not helpfull,
i'm also change a new hair style,
hope that will have a new begin,
if there were a day i'm no longer miss you,
maybe that was the day we be friend again..

Say one but did two,
I'm the people quite emo,
Gonna made me feel mad,
Hoping may change everything..

Night 22:08,
Page 10-01,
by Kenny Yht..

想.. Think..

在下笔前，
犹豫了半小时有多，
不知道自己该写什么，
因为我变得很迷茫，
我不应该坚持了，
我应该放手了，
还是怎样了。
Before i'm was begin write this page,
i'm was hesitant around half hour,
i'm don't know what should write,
i'm feel completely confused,
i'm should not holding on,
i'm should let go,
or what i'm should..

一位朋友告诉我说，
我必须学习原谅和放弃，
和妳做朋友是没有错的，
但是不再做太亲密的朋友，
我必须知道我认识妳太久了，
不可能做到忘记与忽略妳，
我也不应该担忧和投诉了，
因为我这样做只会更加忘不了，
必须知道这不容易和需要时间，
不会一会儿就好，
需要慢慢的慢慢的复原，
所以加油和别放弃这念头。
(Original by Para2 and copy by Me)
u need to learn how to forgive and forget
nothing wrong to be friends with her
don't have to be close friends
but u know her long time d how can u forgot and ignore
and u need to stop worrying and complaining
the more u do that the more u can't forget
i know it's not easy but u also know need time
won't suddenly make u better d
but slowly slowly u can
so jiayou don't give up =)

突然觉得我好累好累，
想念妳让我觉得太累，
是的我背负一块石头，
我不知道能否抛开它，
我只是希望能吃得下，
睡得着，
就这么简单而已，
身心已经太过疲累了，
让我觉得太难去撑住，
如果我真的忘记就算，
不能我也是没办法了。
I'm feel tired very very,
miss you let me too tired,
yea i'm carry a big stone,
i'm don't know can throw it or not,
i'm just hope in future i'm can eat,
i'm can sleep,
just that simple i'm need,
my body and soul was very tired,
let me feel hard to continue living,
if i'm could forgot then just that,
if not then i'm out of any way..

Feel tired and should can sleep well,
but carry to much heavy,
let me feel tired and can't rest,
what i'm holding,
what i'm hoping,
what i'm trying,
who am i?

Midnight 03:35,
Page 10,
by Kenny Yht..

疲累.. Tired..

首先我要谢谢妳还关心我，
也谢谢妳亲手为我做的礼物，
我感到很温馨也很开心，
我也读了妳给我的信，
也读了妳的回忆录。
First i'm wanna to say thank you for still care about me,
and also thank for your the hand made present,
i'm feel happy and warm,
i'm read the letter you wrote,
i'm read your memories too..

我明白知道妳希望我放弃，
我明白知道妳希望我活的好好，
我明白知道妳希望我们当朋友，
我明白知道妳希望一切从头来过，
妳知道吗，
如果我想放弃我几年前就做了，
我希望妳明白，
妳曾经做到的不代表我也能，
妳不是我，
妳不知道这世上有人会这样，
明知道会伤害自己，
但是就是不能放过自己。
I'm understand and knew you hope me let go,
I'm understand and knew you hope me living better,
I'm understand and knew you hope we could start fresh,
I'm understand and knew you hope everything be zero,
but you has to know,
If i'm wanna do that i'm did few year ago,
i'm hope you understand that too,
it's did by you but not mean can by me,
you not me,
you never know the world got people fool as me,
i'm knew it's hurting self,
but i'm just can't let myself go..

其实我真的感到疲累了，
不但我身体觉得很累，
我的心也感到非常累了，
我不知道我还坚持什么，
如果将来我真的找到一个我爱的人，
也许我会真正忘记对妳的感觉，
妳别再对我好可以吗？
我已经说了，
别对我太好，
我会以为妳喜欢我的，
妳可以忽略我对妳的感觉，
但是求求妳别要我放开，
说放下的人很多，
但是做得到的人不多，
如果妳还当我是朋友的话，
妳就应该远离我，
而不是表示希望我振作，
妳越这样我就会越难受，
对不起。
I'm really feel tired,
not only feel on my body,
even my heart also feel tired very,
i'm don't know what i'm holding for,
but if future i'm found some one i'm really love,
i'm maybe can forgot what i'm feel on you,
Please don't treat me good like now okay?
I'm said that before,
don't treat me so good,
i'm will though you feel on me,
you may can ignore my feel on you,
but please don't ask me let it go,
people said that was many,
but not many can done that,
if you still take me as a friend,
you should leave me,
not hoping what you hope,
when you did this i'm just feel more suffer,
I'm Sorry..

Tired not only feel on body,
is signal from my heart,
why would that,
because i'm don't know what Love is,
Love people was suffer,
Loving by people also suffer,
I'm don't hope to feel love some one anymore..
I'm hope the emotion will be taken by GOD..

Night 22:40,
Page 9,
by Kenny Yht..

成长.. Grow up..

如果这个问题问我，
我不知道怎样回答，
因为我自认我大不透，
也许人类会不知不觉的成长，
当我真的成长，
我才知道我真的改变了吧。
If people ask me this question,
i'm sure don't know how to answer it,
because i'm still think as a child,
maybe people will grow up unconsciously,
when i'm really grow up,
i think i'm will knew that..

可能经历一些事后，
人类才能懂得，
原来这样做才有效，
原来我这样很傻，
可能吧，
我不知道，
因为我还在做着傻事，
明明知道结果如何，
却还是舍不得放下。
Maybe need passed some happen,
people will knew that,
ohh did like now will more effective,
ohh i'm did like now was very fool,
maybe,
i'm don't know,
i'm knew that i'm doing the fool,
because even i'm knew the result clearly,
but i'm still not willing to..

人总得学会独处，
世界上最在乎自己的，
原来只是自己，
不管别人怎么表现在乎，
但是他们永远无法明白，
你内心多么渴望，
只有自己才明白自己。
People must learn how to face alone,
the most care self in the world,
was only self,
no matter how people care,
but they can't understanding you,
how your mind was thinking,
only you're the one knew exactly..

It's failed day again,
No matter how i'm acting,
I'm knew that was a lie,
Hope today have a sweet sleep..

Good Nited and Sweet dreams..

Night 23:38,
Page 8,
by Kenny Yht..

睡眠.. Slept..

睡眠对很多人来说，
是宝贵的珍贵的，
我不知道已经第几次，
我从睡眠中醒来，
之后就无法再入眠。
Sleeping for every person,
was great and sweet,
i'm not sure how many times,
i'm awakened from sleeping,
after that i'm can't go back my sleep..

我知道在折磨自己，
从工作回家后，
体力的恢复对我有多重要，
我必须明白，
但是就是不能好好再睡眠。
I'm knew i'm was torture self,
came back from work,
important of recorver my enerygy,
i'm knew how important to me,
but i'm just can't get a sweet sleep..

不管我在人前笑得多灿烂，
背后我还是被失败打败，
我总会想起妳，
为何还放不下妳，
是我过分想妳了吗？
还是我其实真的爱上妳？
No matter how charm of smiling,
behind of smile was crying,
keep remind you by my mind,
why can't let go,
it's i'm think you too much?
Or i'm really fall in love on you?

Maybe i'm foolish by fate,
I'm just think too much,
Sadness of myself,
Sigh...

Midnight 05:05,
Page has been slit,
by Kenny Yht..

疼.. Pain..

曾经看过一张图，
图中手中握着一支燃烧的蜡烛，
当蜡慢慢的落入手中，
手还是握住蜡烛不放，
这是为了什么呢？
图中提问，
疼麽？
疼为什麽不放手？
原来只因为舍不得。
I'm seen a picture before,
in the picture a hand holding a burning candle,
when the wax of candle fall into hand,
the hand still holding the candle,
all about this for what?
In the picture was wrote,
Feel pain?
If feel pain why don't just give up?
All that because not willing to..

坚持一些无谓的同时，
我会问自己，
到底为了什么，
我也非常明白这不可能，
但是我就是不能放下，
虽然知道放下是唯一的路，
是我太傻太傻，
还是有某些力量让我继续，
我不知道，
我真的不知道，
我只是知道今天，
我还是一样的想念着妳。
晚安。
Insist on something unnecessary,
i'm will ask self in the same time,
all of this for what,
i'm knew that is impossible very clear,
but i'm can't just put away like that,
even knew put away was a only way,
is i'm the foolish very,
or there has some unknown force keep me do it,
i'm don't know,
i'm really don't know that,
all i'm know was today,
i'm was same miss you like all the time..
Good Nited and Sweet Dreams..

Nothing much to say,
Because all is the same,
Miss You,
Heart feel guilty,
Moon was gone when the cloud is coming..

Night 22:34,
Page 7,
by Kenny Yht..

想妳.. Miss You..

下雨的夜，
果然会想妳，
是妳梦见我，
还是我过分想妳了，
我永不知道。
Raining night,
miss you very much,
is i'm appear in you dream,
or i'm think too much,
i'm never know..

妳还有关心我吗？
妳最近过的怎样？
妳还会这么痛心？
我还是妳朋友吗？
妳知道我想妳吗？
妳有看我部落吗？
妳看到我流泪吗？
我今晚现在很想妳，
好想抱着妳说，
我真的真的很想念妳。
Did you still care me?
How are you now?
Did you still feel suffer?
Did we still friend?
Did you know i'm miss you?
Did you read my blogspot?
Did you saw my tears?
I'm miss you very tonight and right now,
wish to hugging you and tell you,
I'm really really miss you so so much..

Sigh..
Always happen..
Raining night..
All you in mind..
Horrible midnight..

I'm was failed person..

Miss you very much,
I'm an idiot,
Sigh,
Suffer..

You miss me?
Or just my think much?
U never feel that.. right?

Sigh.. Abit forced to made that,
All because it's an idiot dream..

Midnight 03:48,
A dairy with accidently,
feel better to writed..
by Kenny Yht..

回忆.. Memories..

如果你问我，
一生中最美好的回忆，
应该会有蛮多，
只是平时会把美好的隐藏起来，
就说说 8, 9年前的友谊吧，
妳，我和她的开始。
If you're asking me,
what is the best memories of my,
should be a lot,
but i'm will hiding the best normally,
let's talk about friendship of 8, 9 years ago,
about you, me and her..

该如何开始呢，
第一次相遇应该是在一个山洞吧，
我忘了如何与妳们组队，
然后我拉了一群怪来杀，
我记得妳问她，
这家伙有问题吧？
当然没问题啦因为我是傻的，
之后我们就经常组队，
妳们还时不时合起来欺负我，
虽然被欺负但是觉得很窝心，
在不知不觉中我们都长大了。
How begin for this,
i'm remember us first meet is in a cave bah,
i'm forgot how invite you guy party wit me,
i'm remember that i'm luring many mob,
you asking her,
this fella got problem is it,
of course not because this guy was crazy one,
after that we always party and train together,
you guy always bully me when that time,
even been bully but i'm feel warm,
we grow up with that happiest moment..

妳记得我第一次在妳生日送妳什么吗？
是在妳的英雄死过一次，
我偷偷买了一颗回命丹给妳，
我还问她我该如何送妳呢，
她就教我如何送妳礼物，
虽然过程非常搞笑但是还好妳接受了，
在我们二转时还一起开开心心完成任务，
之后我因为某些原因离开妳们，
还好最后我们还是在一起，
当妳毕业后我们开始减少上线了，
之后也越来越少联系。
Do you remember what first gift i'm giving when your birthday?
It's your's hero dead before,
i'm bought a hero pill quietly,
and i'm asking her how to give that to you,
she teaching me how do that,
how that process of course very funny luckily you accept at last,
i'm remember we done 2nd turn together happiness also,
but after that i'm leaving for some reason,
luckily we stick together until 3rd turn,
we less online when you are going college,
and we less contact after that..

友谊发展到现在，
我也不太明白为了什么，
我不知道妳是怎么想，
但是其实我感觉上，
不再配得上当妳朋友了，
因为我喜欢上妳，
导致很多问题发生了，
过去那几年，
我尝试忽略妳的存在，
但是当妳来到这里生活后，
我就知道，
每每我经过妳和他出现的地方，
我都会莫名的心痛了，
我失去了朋友的资格，
让我心痛的是，
我伤害了一个对我好的妳，
对不起。
Our friendship become like now,
i'm not really sure why i'm did that,
i'm not sure how you're think about,
but feel on me was,
i'm not worthy of be your friend anymore,
because i'm feel on you,
made a lot of problem happen,
when the past of few year ago,
i'm trying to ignore you exist,
but when you came KL and live here,
i'm knew that,
every time i'm pass the place you been with him,
i'm will feel painful extra,
i'm lost the qualification to be a friend,
what to made me feel painful was,
i'm hurt you the one whose treat me very good,
I'm Sorry..

The great memories of mind,
unforgettable,
because if you disappear of this part,
i'm will lost everything about you..

Night 22:09,
Page 6,
by Kenny Yht..

抱憾.. Apologetic..

每个人一定会犯错，
重点在于可否能补偿，
以前曾经犯了一次过错，
导致现在也还会感到歉然，
最近又一次犯错，
觉得自己是无法原谅，
不是怕妳不原谅我，
而是我无法原谅自己了。
Everyone human will did the mistake,
the point is can be forgive by or not,
i'm did a mistake before,
made i'm feel sorry even now,
i'm did that mistake again now,
i'm feel i'm unforgivable,
not worry you're not forgive,
it's about i'm can't forgive myself..

曾经答应不再丢下妳不管,，
可是现在却对妳做出这样的事情，
不但让自己觉得非常内疚，
甚至觉得自己不再适合当妳朋友，
失去了妳这位朋友，
我的心很难受，
但是我明白如果我继续假装，
不但伤害妳更加深，
我还怕会做出更可怕的事情，
虽然心里很痛，
但是更害怕伤害妳后那种心痛。
I'm was promise never drop you alone,
but i'm did that to you again now,
i'm not only feel guilty,
i'm feel be ashamed to be your friend anymore,
lost a friend as you,
i'm feel very painful and sadness,
but i'm has to understand if i'm keep pretend,
no only will hurting you more deeply,
i'm afraid will did something more terrible,
no matter how pain was my heart,
i'm more afraid the pain after hurting you..

虽然我不知道你是否还会在意，
但是对我来说，
就算妳的一个早安晚安，
对我来说比任何事情还要开心，
在默默的离开之后，
我就得学习如何不为妳的伤心而伤心，
因为如果我继续这样，
我只会更加的伤心难过，
甚至无法忘记对妳的感觉。
Although i'm not know you care or not,
but what for me is,
even if a Good Morning or Good Night,
will let me feel happiness whole day,
after leave without Good Bye,
i'm know i'm has to learn how to not feel sad of your sadness,
because if i'm keep feeling that,
i'm will only continue sadness,
even can't forgot what i'm feel on you..

Please forgive a selfish idiot,
because he trying let you happiness,
no matter the way he use was wrong,
the point of him only wanna,
to see the Angel carry the smile again..

Something after did, can't be fixed with sorry..
Because i'm broke the heart, only feel apologetic in my life..
Night 21:05,
Page 5,
by Kenny Yht (I'm Sorry)

改变.. Change..

刚发起一篇充满挑剔性的日记，
知道你看后会不开心所以删除，
算啦妳看不看我顾不来，
就当我自我安慰好了，
今天的我心情非常差，
就算再怎么想妳，
妳也不会心疼我这么傻。
Just post a dairy with provoke,
but i'm knew you will angry so deleted,
fine even if you din't read i'm can't control,
just take as i'm lie to self,
today i'm was very upset,
no matter how much i'm miss you,
you will never feel of my foolish,,

有三道问题所困扰，
第一道就是我曾问过妳可否追求妳，
妳是否记得妳对我回答什么？
第二道就是妳问我可否问我尴尬的问题，
可是最后我都无法知道什么问题？
第三道就是妳是否曾经对我有感觉，
虽然答案已经不再重要，
但是我还是很希望知道,
我是一个求知欲很强的人，
有些事真的很想知道，
虽然妳告诉我不知道对我好。
There has three question i'm worry,
No. one is i'm ask you before can i'm pikat you,
do you remember what you answer me?
No. two is you ask me for about a awkward question,
but at the end i'm din't know the question at all?
No. three is do you feel on me before,
even if i'm knew that all the answer was past,
but i'm still wish to know,
because i'm a person whose curious heavy,
something i'm wish to know really,
but you will tell me not to know is good to me..

Sigh..
Always Miss You..
Right now..
Always is the same..
Horrible feeling..

Night 23:42,
Page 4,
by Kenny Yht (Fool)

真的想你.. Miss You very..

有人说深夜是寂寞的，
我深深的体会到了，
寂寞的深夜却想起了妳，
到底我对你有什么感觉，
到底我为什么念念不忘，
我无法回答，
我只是知道妳活在我心里。
People said that midnight was lonely,
i'm feel that deeply right now,
lonely midnight i'm was miss you,
what exactly i'm feel on you,
why i'm can't even forgot about you,
i'm has no answer,
i'm just know you live in my heart..

感觉对你非常非常抱歉，
我不但伤害了自己，
我还伤害了妳，
感觉非常内疚，
为了妳的难过而难过，
眼泪无法好好控制，
我以为离开时非常潇洒的，
却原来我错了，
我的心不但想念着妳，
我还为我对妳的伤害感到痛心，
笨蛋对不起。
Feel sorry very very much to you,
i'm not only hurting self,
i'm was hurting you too,
feel very guilty about it,
feel sad for your sadness,
tears falling uncontrolled,
i'm thought leaving was right and easy,
but i'm was wrong,
my heart not only miss you right now,
i'm also feel pain because i'm hurting you,
I'm Sorry dumb2..

当初的关怀，
已经成为过去式，
从此只能活在对方的回忆里，
其实我只能对妳说，
我不是希望这样的，
如果知道把大家逼成这样，
我宁愿把秘密收藏至永远，
宁愿自欺欺人，
也不愿意看到现在妳和我的痛苦，
我对不起妳。
Care each other like last time,
was become the past,
we can only live in memories of each other,
actually i'm only hope to telling you,
i'm not hoping become like this,
if i'm knew that early,
i'm will wish to keep the secret forever,
i'm wish to lie on you and all people,
and not wish to see suffer of you and my,
I'm Sorry..

Midnight 00:58,
Page 3,
I'm feel pain because of hurting you,
I'm Sorry for true heart,
by Kenny Yht..(The Fool)

无言.. Speechless..

特意去熬夜，
因为怕梦见你，
结果还是失败了，
不管怎样不去思念，
还是会想起妳的微笑。
Keep myself sleep late,
because worry dream on you,
but it's same failed,
no matter how hard to control,
your smile was appear on my mind..

觉得很内疚，
伤害了妳却不知，
以为自己才是受害者，
原来只是一个自我的傻子，
决定远离妳的世界时，
告诉自己再怎么不舍，
也得坚持下去，
不然只会继续伤害着妳，
就算再怎么想妳，
也只好告诉自己妳过的好好。
Feel guilty,
don't even know hurting you,
take self innocent like a fool,
after made decision to step away,
telling self no matter how,
must keep hold on,
if not will continue hurting you,
no matter how much i'm miss you,
but only tell to self you will live happiness..

学习如何理性的思考，
怕会再次伤害了妳，
如果我们将来还有机会当朋友，
希望我有资格成为妳的朋友，
毕竟我已经第二次的伤害着妳。
Learning how thinking with rationality,
worry to hurt you again,
if we still could be friend again,
i'm hope i'm have the qualification to be,
because i'm the person hurt you twice..

想告诉妳今天我还是想着妳..
Just hope you know today i'm was miss you..

Afternoon 15:16,
Sorry i'm miss you,
Page 2,
by Kenny Yht..

傻.. Fool..

想了一整天，
不知道什么时候开始，
以为自己爱上了妳，
原来只是喜欢上妳，
爱与喜欢的不同是，
爱会呵护着所爱的人，
喜欢只想拥有爱的人。
Keep thinking all the day,
Don't know since when,
i'm thought i'm fall in love on you,
but that i'm only like you,
the different of Love and Like,
Love will protect whose you love,
Like just trying to hold your in hand..

当知道了妳对我的感觉，
才知道自己在伤害着妳，
导致到现在，
连朋友都难当成，
一切都因为我当初，
以为自己玩得起暧昧，
原来我玩不起这游戏。
Since knew your feel,
i'm know that only i'm hurting you,
cause until the situation now,
our friendship was almost end,
all because i'm thought,
i'm could play the game of ambiguous,
actually i'm don't..

容易被感性控制着理性，
做出伤害人的事情，
之后才后悔自己没控制好，
求妳别对我太好，
因为我会以为妳喜欢我，
我只是一个思考简单的孩子，
因为我相信着妳是天使。
When rationality control by sensibility,
i'm did everything hurting people,
after that regret i'm din't control well,
please don't treat me good,
because i'm will think much,
i'm just the child with simple thinking,
because i'm believe you're the angel..

以后会尽量双语写部落格，
因为希望妳偶尔会看，
就当我是个傻子吧。
I'm will try made Mandarin and English version,
because i'm hope you may see it,
just take me as a fool that hoping..
(Yeah, the WMO times also is my prefect memories in my life)

Night 09:10,
15th November 2013,
by Kenny Yht..