寂寞.. Always alone..

一直主动取悦别人，
但后来反而被冷落。
这就是被拒绝的情形吗？
不管我多么想，
当单方面的去想，
最后被伤害的，
还都只是自己罢了。
一直想说，
不如再试一次吧，
但是却一直失败，
我是一个人类，
失败久了我还是会感到疲累。
想像以前那样，
不开心就找妳聊天，
要妳借个肩膀来靠下，
可是却回不去以前。
身体累了就好好休息，
如果我的心累了呢？
Keep be active to find someone,
but someone is no care..
Is it normal after get rejected?
No matter how much i'm hoping,
there is only exchange dissapointed,
feel hurting,
is the only feel for my self..
Keep telling self,
try last for this,
but same failed in the end,
i'm a human fresh,
will feel tired much also if get reject much..
Hope can like last time,
when i'm feel down can find you chatting,
ask you borrow me your shoulder to rely,
but that is the past..
If can rest when body is feel tired,
what if my heart is tired too?

Morning 08:08,
Page 94,
By Yht..

时光机.. Time Machine..

喜欢漫画的我，
总会幻想有时光机，
这样就可以随时回到过去，
不管开心还是不开心，
都能由自己改变。
但是幻想总归幻想，
不会发生。
听过一句话，
遇见七个自己，
一个软弱，
一个强悍，
一个悲愁，
一个积极，
一个伤痛，
一个快乐，
最后一个还在成长。
过去了不需要改变，
因为它们都在成就现在的我，
如果硬要时光倒流，
一切都不再变得珍贵了。
谢谢让我明白这道理。
夜了，
该睡了。
Those people like anime as me,
sure will imaging what if we have a time machines,
if got that we could back to past any moments,
no matter happiness or sadness,
all can change by our self..
But all of that just is an imagination,
never gonna happen in reality..
i'm read a meaning theory before,
meet the seven my self,
one weakness,
one stronger,
one negative,
one positive,
one happiness,
one sadness,
and the last one are still growing..
Past should not to change,
they made who i am right now,
if can change the past easily,
we never be treasure what we have right now..
Thank the person whose let me know this..
Midnight,
should sleep,
good night and sweet dream,
Someone..

Midnight 01:48,
Page 93,
By Yht..

病..? Sickness..?

人总在最脆弱时，
才想起他最想的人。
今天是糟糕的一天，
工作上很不开心，
身体也出毛病，
连心情也非常低落。
头痛，
胃痛，
甚至于工作弄伤，
好像要把我搞死才开心。
睡不好，
也吃不好，
在自己最不开心最失落时，
以为会有人在乎与紧张，
原来最在乎的是我自己。
生病了，
一直期待妳的问候，
但也只是我在发梦罢了。
有时候想告诉妳，
我身体越来越差了，
我好害怕喔。
算了吧，
有些事不管妳事，
知道只会带给妳困扰。
听着歌，
闭着眼，
想着妳，
对不起。
Human will think the person they most care,
when they are on weakness situation..
Last day is a horrible day,
feel unhappy for my job,
and sickness is come into me together,
made my mood become very down very down..
Headache,
gastric,
and injured when working,
look like wanna play me until i'm kiss the floor..
Can't sleep well,
and can't eat well again,
i'm thought there will have people care,
when i'm sick and down,
actually i'm the only one caring my self..
After feel sick,
i'm dreaming that you will asking,
but dreaming is totally different with reality..
There is always lying,
what i'm trying to hiding,
is meanless and pointless..
Whatever,
something you should not know,
and alwaya just is a disturb only..
Closing eye,
listen music,
miss you,
i'm sorry..

Midnight and i'm can't sleep again, feel anger to my self, why so weak why can't change and grow up.. What i'm doing always like a kid, sigh..

Midnight 00:40,
Page 92,
By Yht..

不敢.. Dare not..

人家说，
如果决定了改变，
就千万别怯，
因为一怯，
就什么都改变不了。
一直觉得好孤单，
感觉没有人喜欢，
却不知道自己问题出在哪里。
其实我不是不想找妳谈，
我只是怕妳嫌我烦，
过去妳都知道我是怎样的人，
你也说过我不接受答案，
所以我怎么还敢找妳烦妳。
我朋友说，
当男人，
就得要有男子气慨，
别老是想着让人喜欢，
喜欢不喜欢是由得人，
不是由得自己。
一直很想成为一个男人，
最缺乏的是责任感吧，
每次工作都不了了之，
我真的好想搞好公司，
如果自己不负责任，
公司也不会踏上成功之路。
也许等到我真的改变与成长，
才能真正的当妳朋友。
People said,
if you decide to change,
dont be afraid,
because if you did afraid,
you will never change anything..
Always felt lonely,
feel there is no one like me,
actually is there got problem of me and i'm don't know it..
I'm did know you are around and hope to find you talking,
just i'm dare not to find you and wondering you will feel annoying,
used you know what people i am,
you also know that i'm will never accept the answer not i'm wan't,
how could i'm still dare to find you if i'm feel that again..
My friend told me that,
if wan't be a man,
I need to thinking like a man,
can't always feel lonely and no one is like or care,
like me or not is decide by people,
not by my self..
Really hope i'm can be a man,
what i'm need is responsibility,
everytimes din't take responsible for my work,
even if i'm hope to made the company success,
but if i'm still always don't learn what is responsible,
i'm will never will let the company success..
Maybe you has to wait until i'm changed and grow up,
only i will able to talk with you again..

Drunk last night and feel headache morning, tell someone i'm feel not very well but people din't say anything.. What i'm act like a kid.. That the most reason i'm need to changing, i'm can't always thinking like a child, sigh.. God, please give me the strength to change..

Midnight 00:31,
Page 91,
By Yht..

不能.. Cannot..

我有时候想，
会不会是我想得太多，
算吧，
如果其他人真的能代替妳，
我就不会藏着感情那么久。
很累，
感觉很疲累，
就像当时感觉那样，
如果可以真的希望就这样，
躺在草地上，
什么都不去想，
什么都别在乎。
对妳的感觉还是存在,
既然忘不了，
为什么不就这样由得它，
反正我越想心就越痛。
好想找人谈谈我的心，
却不知如何去开口说，
还是算吧，
没有人会在乎。
只有自己，
才是最关心自己的那个。
Some times i'm was thinking,
is that really i'm did think too much,
what ever,
if there really have people can replace you,
i'm won't hide the feeling so many years..
Tired,
really feel tired come from my heart,
just like what i'm feeling that times,
if can just let go all happen and go away,
i'm wish i could sleep on grass,
do nothing,
and think nothing..
The feeling towards you are still there,
if that feeling is can't be forget,
why don't just let it continue without hiding,
i'm already nothing can lost beside heart still feel pain..
Really hope someone is really know me and talk about my heart,
but there is no one will do,
so just let it,
no one will care..
Only me self,
is the only one will caring my self..

Whatever, i'm already do what i'm trying to cheer up my self, do nothing and let the harder time gone, if there really some one care me, she will did to tell me, hey, you this dumb, just maybe she still finding the map come into me.. So.. there is nothing much i can do right now =')

Night 23:34,
Page 90,
By Yht..

可以…陪我吗? Can you..accompany me?

忍住了泪水那么久，
在眼眶里徘徊，
终于落下了。
我以为我找到人代替妳，
很开心不用伤害妳，
因为我对她拥有对妳那种感觉，
但是却是一场梦境。
她只是一种错觉，
从头到尾我都自作多情，
别人对我根本就普通朋友。
好想打给妳说，
我想她了喔，
就像我当初想妳般。
是因为我把她当成是妳吗？
是因为我的人本身有问题吗？
为什么，
我选择都是错的？
难道一个在乎我，
也希望我在乎她的女生不存在吗？
男生再怎么能撑，
在失去自己爱的人鼓励，
他实在很难撑下去，
我想告诉妳，
我倒了，
可以陪我说话吗？
我…
很不开心也失去活下去的力量。
Hey =)
I'm need someone to talk..
Could you accompany like last time we did?
The tears playing at my eye for a long times,
i'm feel happy finally found someone is have same feeling on you,
But all is wrong,
she just treat me as a normal friend,
hope can call you and said,
hey, i'm miss her..
Why will like this,
Just because i'm take her as you?
Or the problem is happen on me this people?
Why...
all my choose is wrong deeply..?
Is it there is not exist for a gal i'm care always,
and she care me too,
is it do not exist in this world?
No matter how tough of a man,
when he keep losing all the cheer up from his loving person,
he will already feel to give up,
i'm wanna let you know,
i'm very pain and fall,
i'm tired and lost my energy to survive..
Can..
I'm find you just for a talk?

=) smiling just for showing, whose will know actually my heart is bleeding.. I'm know this is harder time for me, but i'm lost my energy to fight.. Heh, i'm tired.. Man, is a harder job for me.. =')

Night 22:02,
Page 89,
By Yht..

失眠.. Can't sleep..

不知何时开始，
又失眠了。
很多事情，
只要不去想，
就不会发生与烦恼。
为了妳我曾经吃不下，
睡不着，
当我决定告诉妳，
结果使我更加痛苦。
今天我把一切转移，
还是会很痛苦。
不论情人什么的，
都只是自己在自作多情，
打从以前就没人喜欢自己。
完全失去爱一个人的自信，
连工作都无法集中精神，
我可以继续像以前般，
所思念所牵挂，
都只是妳吗？
我感觉到外面很累，
找爱自己的人真的很累。
Not sure since when,
i'm can't sleep again..
A lot of trouble,
never will happen,
if i'm din't think like that early..
Used i'm can't sleep well,
eat well just because of you,
and just feel more worst,
after i'm told you all my feel..
But cause me more suffer,
what i'm think i could transfer the feeling to other..
No matter how i'm doing,
no one is actually like me at all,
all of this just i'm the one whose thought ppl like me..
Totally lost all the confident,
can't even focus on my job,
can i'm just like what i'm did last time,
full of mind just because of you,
no matter i'm working or sleeping?
I'm felt tired at out here,
i'm really feel tired to searching someone like me from heart..

I'm lost, i'm don't know did i'm really fall into you, or i'm totally take the other people as you.. I'm confused dumb2.. I'm feel bad and tired, what i'm? Last time you can explain or scold me.. Why now we can't like that argue anymore..

Midnight 02:55,
Page 88,
By Yht..

有这必要? Should i like that?

因为在乎所以才问，
换来的竟是有必要说吗？
其实我如果不在乎，
我会等一整天后，
再主动找她吗？
好吧，
如果她表现说她不在乎，
我又怎样去在乎。
努力把自己做好，
那就对得起自己啦。
开始重新振作吧。
I'm ask because i'm care,
what the reply is should i'm explain?
If i'm din't care,
will i'm still finding her,
after i'm wait whole day?
All right,
she already tell me with action she don't care,
how i'm can care even if i'm try to..
All is can done is live with hapiness,
for that my heart can feel better..
Start all over again bah..

Morning 09:38,
Page 87,
By Yht..

It's really happen again..

For the last few month i'm living in my darkness world, when the day i'm trying to step up just is another nightmare happen.. Last time i'm was waiting your msg everydays, but now i'm waiting another person msg every minutes again.. 

The feeling is come back to me, i'm feel sad is because really is my problem there? Why everything i'm did is just like a kid for everyones? I'm was very confused what i am.. My head is very pain, can't sleep well..

I'm thought transfer all feeling to other from you, is the better way to forget, but it's totally wrong, because i'm lie to everyone even if i'm pretend i'm not care.. I'm need some support to cheer up, but there is no one will do.. How i'm expect someone is love me if i'm din't love my self before them..? Monday again, and i'm need be lonely fighter again.. Sigh..

夜深.. Midnight..

很久没半夜这样醒来，
我以为把对妳的感觉，
完全转移就会没事，
原来被别的人伤害，
比当时还要更不舒服，
因为没人会在乎我的感觉，
没有人会像妳般在乎。
我知道不能这样下去，
因为会伤害妳，
我会试着成长，
我会试着不为任何人而活。
妳过得好吗？
喝多点水啊，
最近天气和印尼那里，
注意健康，
别一直要人担心妳。
Long time din't get up in midnight,
i'm thought transfer the feeling to other,
is the better way to stand up,
actually get hurt by other,
feel more uncomfortable than that time,
Because no one will caring my feel,
no one will caring my feel like you did..
I'm knew that continue like this,
i will keep hurting you if still like now,
i will to try grow up again,
i will try live without living for anybody..
How do you do?
Drink many water yea,
weather bad and indonesia there,
you need take care your healthy,
don't let people keep worry about you..
Sorry for continue the miss you life,
Sigh,
you sei lord is useless in everything..

Midnight 05:11,
Page 86,
By Yht..

超不开心的.. Super Unhappy..

越在乎就越痛苦，
不知道什么人说的，
原本约了人出去喝茶，
却在最后一分钟被甩。
很不喜欢猜疑的感觉，
而女生却喜欢让人猜，
知道我的内心多痛吗？
说过宁愿被妳伤害，
也不愿被别人伤害，
好想从今天开始就藏起来，
把一切不开心写在这里。
不让任何人看，
只有在人后默默流泪。
真的很想对全世界说，
我是傻子，
别对我好，
我会爱上妳。
Care more will suffer more,
never know who said that,
suppose yam cha at outside now,
but get reject at last minute..
Very hate feeling of doubt,
but girls always let guy to guessing,
know how pain my heart?
I'm said that before,
if has been hurt by someone that i'm hope only by you,
really hope to hiding self from now,
and only write everything in every nights at here..
Don't let anyone to read,
and hide my self and crying behind the world..
Wanna shout to the world,
I'm just a fool,
Don't treat me good,
I'm will fall into you!

Sigh.. Why wan't promise me go out and give me a question without answer before you say don't wan't go.. You never know how pain i'm feel when you say No to me.. Love? Complicated and tired..
Happy Valentine's Day..

I'm should made for you 10years ago,
before everything too late..

Midnight 22:16,
Page 85,
By Yht..

压抑.. Hide the emo..

忘了从何时开始，
告诉自己别写了，
因为一个对妳很重要的日子到了。
越接近那天，
就越觉得很难挨了，
很难才过完昨夜。
喝醉了，
起来只会更想念妳，
过了这么多天，
知道妳不看了，
明白妳帮我决定不写。
希望我真的能停止，
也希望妳幸福和健康生活。
情人节快乐。
Forgot since when,
stop my self continue writing,
because a important day is near..
More close of this day,
feel more suffer,
very hard to pass last night..
After drunk,
only will miss you more after awake,
after so many days,
i'm knew that you never read anymore,
understand that you may help me made decision to stop writing,
really hope i'm could sucess,
and hope you will live with happiness and healthy..
Happy Valentines Day dumb2..

Midnight 20:47,
Page 84,
By Yht..

选择.. Choice..

刚认识一个朋友，
一个奇怪的朋友。
开始会有蛮多话题，
渐渐就变得奇怪了，
当没话题时，
越想找话题越尴尬。
刚开始我想说，
把她当成一个新开始，
如果能忘记妳更好，
相反的却让我更记得妳。
越接近那女生，
越感觉迷茫。
当时妳没回复我的感觉，
又慢慢发生在我身上。
那种等待妳的回复，
到最后发现原来妳没放上心，
那种疲累的感觉，
我想我不能也不想再承受。
如果要我选择被谁伤害，
我可以选择妳吗？
至少我在感觉被伤害后，
我知道妳还在在乎着我。
突然希望妳创进我梦境，
至少我知道妳从不害我。
Meet a new friend,
a weird friend like you..
Begin have many topics,
after that topics become less,
more "gam gai" is,
when out of topics and i'm still trying bring up new one..
Early that,
i'm try all of this as a new begining,
if could forget you is the better,
but all of this just made me remember much..
More close with her,
i'm feel more lost..
The feel of you no reply me when last gime,
it's slowly happen on me again..
That feel of waiting,
but actually is you din't put on heart,
the tired feeling,
i'm think i can't and don't wan't feel it again..
If can choose hurt by who,
can i just choose you?
At least when i'm feel pain,
i'm knew that you're still caring me..
Hope you step in my dream again,
at least i'm know you never wanna hurt me..

If you read this, please no misunderstanding i'm blame you no reply me again.. What i'm trying bring up is the feel if waiting people reply, not aim-ing you.. I'm apologize that if made you mad again.. I know you never mean to hurt anybody, there just me this selfish people feeling.. Okay, nited and sweet dream.. Sleep well..

Midnight 00:09,
Page 83,
By Yht..

算吧.. Let it bah..

很多时候想，
不如就这样算吧。
我不再写下去，
妳也别再在乎我。
这几天我真的很低落，
不知为何心里很沉闷，
对妳的思念，
让我觉得疲累不堪，
感觉自己快崩溃了。
一直寻找战斗的动力，
却发现自己还在迷失当中。
不止一次又一次的，
去阻止自己找妳，
虽然可以阻止成功，
但是真的很怕自己会失败。
以前妳会陪我聊天，
但知道我非常不开心时，
可是这一切都已经是过去了。
别说妳还会不会找我，
就连我还能不能和妳聊天，
都已经是一个疑问了。
我是个傻瓜，
不管命运还要玩弄我多久，
我只想说，
我想妳想得很疲累了，
就这样算吧好不好？
Thinking many times with that,
why don't just leave it like that..
No more blog for me,
and no more caring for you..
This few day feel very down without reason,
feel very upset and trouble in my heart,
miss you,
made me tired very,
and falling down anytimes..
Keep finding the force for fighting in my life,
at the end notice that i'm still lost in somewhere..
Trying to stop my self find you,
keep stoping and repeat,
although can still sucess right now,
but really afraid will lost control some days..
Last time you will find me to talk,
when you knew i'm very down,
but all of this just happen in past..
Beside the question about would you find me or not,
there still have a bigger trouble is,
will i'm able talk to you in this situation..
I'm just a fool,
no matter how long fate wan't to playing me again,
i'm just wan't to say,
i'm really tired of miss you day by day,
just leave all of this and no more caring okay?

Midnight 02:10,
Page 82,
By Yht..

人生无常.. Life..

今年工作上有点不顺，
但是还是相信自己熬的过去，
命运一直在挑战我的极限，
刚刚收到朋友妈妈中风的消息，
心情沉重无比。
前几天才说要去他家拜年，
现在就发生这种事。
人生不但充满无奈，
还一直不断考验我，
撑得有点辛苦，
考虑要不要告诉你。
有时真的自己撑得很辛苦，
憋到自己真的撑不下。
妳知道吗？
想告诉妳又不敢说，
真的有点不知所措。
Work have some trouble,
but i'm believe i can hang on,
the fate just like is still trying challage my limit,
just receive the news friend's mother has stroke,
feel very very down..
Still plan to "bai nian" at his house,
now happen like this..
Life full of suprise,
it's keep challage my limit,
i'm tahan till very suffer,
and thinking wanna tell you or not..
Sometimes i'm was very sanfu jor,
i'm tahan till over my limit..
Do you know?
The feel wanna tell you something but dare not,
really made me feel helpless..

Midnight 01:45,
Page 81,
By Yht..

在乎.. Care..

我是不是不能在乎一个人？
还是我太过于奇怪了呢？
有些人喜欢读了信息由得它，
而我却把它想成非常复杂，
到底对方在做么呢？
是不是我说错话呢？
还是根本不想回我？
我会一直想一直想，
也许过去我被这样欺骗过？
就算我告诉自己人家在忙，
可是心里就会不好过。
如何学习不去太过于在乎一个人？
在乎一个人是不好的吗？
还是说别表现出来？
曾经有个人说我，
不管她做什么都导致我乱想，
其实她没有错，
是我太过于在乎她的话，
而导致忽略她的感受。
夜深人静，
听着寂寞寂寞就好。
人生总会出现遗憾与感慨，
把它们収在心里就好了。
Is it i'm can't care someone?
Or i'm too weird than other human?
Someone like to let it after read,
but i'm always will complicated it,
what the people talking with me trying to do?
Or i'm said something wrong to her?
Or she never mean to reply me?
I'm will non-stop thinking about it,
maybe because i'm has been cheat by someone before?
Even if i'm trying to clam down and telling self maybe people are busy,
but my heart feel like got a stone stucking it..
How to learn don't care someone too much?
Or care someone is not a good for me?
Or i'm just don't show it up even if i'm care?
Someone saying me like that,
no matter what her did just will made me think much,
actually she not wrong at all,
just because i'm care what her saying too much,
so that why i'm din't care her feeling at all..
Silent night,
listening sadness music..
A life of human will pass a lot of sorry and misstake,
so we must to learn how to keep they into deeply of heart..

Midnight 01:52,
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想妳想妳想妳.. Miss you Miss you Miss you..

好想妳，
怎么办？
你好吗？
今天在外婆家吃火锅，
现在的我有点醉，
但是又想妳，
讽刺吧？
So miss you,
what to do?
How are you?
Today steamboat at grandmom home,
i'm drunk right now,
but i'm miss you,
sarcasm huh?

Dumb2, you sei lord is very shyt man.. You know what you say on me is very true, i'm really don't know how to do.. I'm feel sorry to you because cause you very bad.. Spoil your mood every days.. Don't care your sei lord le, let me suffer alone please =(

Midnight 01:34,
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有些事.. Something..

晚上去了一个地方，
一个让我记忆犹新的地方，
记得当初她离开了我，
我就在那里用工作麻木自己，
吃不下忘不了。
今天旧地从游，
没有了当初的悲伤，
却不知为何想起妳，
原来一个充满浪漫的地方，
真的会让人希望被爱的感觉。
不知为何会那么想妳，
可能就因为我以为自己放下了，
其实是自己一直隐瞒自己吧。
想妳的夜空，
原来是可以那么黯淡。
Went a place tonight,
a place that save my memories there before,
remember that when her leave me,
i'm try to forgot her with working at there,
can't eat and can't forget at all..
Tonight i'm come again this place,
sadness of that time is gone,
but miss you with reasonless,
look like a place fully romantic feel,
will let people feel to love with easily..
Don't know why i'm will still miss you,
maybe i'm just lie to self i'm already put down,
actually i'm not really put down everything..
The night of miss you,
is darkness very..

Midnight 00:02,
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电影.. Movie..

每年过新年，
我都很喜欢去看电影，
特别是关于亲情的，
不知从何时开始，
我觉得家人比自己重要。
昨天和朋友去看了“一路有你”，
非常不错的电影，
尤其在一家人发请柬时，
女儿在车窗画画，
那一幕真的很美很有感觉。
喜欢画画和风景的我，
似乎找回唯美的感觉。
自由在天空飞翔的鸟儿，
迟早会回到自由的天空，
我知道我会 =)
Every CNY,
i'm will enjoyable watch every movie,
especially talk about family,
not sure since when,
i'm feel that family is important than my self,
watched "The Journey" with friend last night,
is a very pretty and great movie,
most beautiful part is,
the daughter drawing at mirror of car,
when they're moving to send invatation of wedding,
that part really very beautifull and touch..
Love natural and drawing,
look like i'm found what i'm lost after school life..
If fate let bird flying in the sky with freedom,
then it will be going back to sky even if fall deep,
i'm believe i can find my wings and my sky =)

Morning 11:21,
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回忆.. Memories..

今天做了几年前的希望，

每次经过都会看几眼，

那是什么呢？

那就是去动物园，

虽然回来后累垮了，

可以勾起我以前很多的回忆。

爸爸妈妈，

姐姐姐夫，

阿姨表弟，

还有最最顽皮的侄子。

帮我朋友拍一些动物的照片，
虽然最后很累，
但是非常值得，
因为在我的快乐回忆录里，
又多了一段美好的回忆。
妳回来了吗？
天气有点热，
喝多点水知道吗？
想妳了，
对不起。
Today complete my wish of year,
what that,
will made my look for few time everytimes pass by?
That the Zoo,
although i'm feel very tired after that,
but remind a lot my happiness memories of my mind..
Papa and Mama,
Sister and Brother in law,
Auntie and Cousin,
of course the most naughty newphew..
Help my friend take a lot animals photo,
althought very tired,
but really worth for it,
because in my part of happy memories,
are increase one more happiness memories again..
Do you come back?
Weather very hot,
drink more water okay?
I'm miss you,
I'm sorry..

Night 22:14,
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爱情.. Love..

爱情是一种很奇怪的感觉，
它既不存在实体，
但是却能影响一个人的行为。
爱情不但存在于少年与青年中，
不管任何年纪都在被爱情折磨，
直到勇敢舍弃爱情，
才算真正的解脱。
原本与过新年不是开开心心吗？
为了什么大家都活得很痛苦呢？
总感觉今天的气氛非常不好，
欢笑不在家中围绕着，
好像远离我们家般似的。
虽然我明白到很多道理，
但是自己却控制不了不去想妳。
在喝下红酒的那刻开始，
我就知道自己在想着妳，
只是我在企图欺骗自己。
夜深的黑夜，
特别想妳，
知道妳不会这样，
所以不想怎样去忘记。
Love is a very special feeling,
it's not a object,
but still can effect all action of a people..
Love not only happen on youth,
it's happen on any age and any times,
can only escape when the people really put down love..
Chinese New Year should be happy for a chinese right?
Why every one living with very suffer of that?
Keep feel something is very wrong of today,
the smile already go away from house,
it's look like go far away from my house..
Although i'm understand many answer,
but i'm still fail to control my self miss you..
When the moment i'm drink the wine,
i'm knew it i'm actually lying my self,
or i'm just trying to lie to my self..
The night of darkness,
will miss you very much,
knew you never will be like this,
so i'm not really wan't to forgot about it..

Midnight 02:00,
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