It's really happen again..

For the last few month i'm living in my darkness world, when the day i'm trying to step up just is another nightmare happen.. Last time i'm was waiting your msg everydays, but now i'm waiting another person msg every minutes again.. 

The feeling is come back to me, i'm feel sad is because really is my problem there? Why everything i'm did is just like a kid for everyones? I'm was very confused what i am.. My head is very pain, can't sleep well..

I'm thought transfer all feeling to other from you, is the better way to forget, but it's totally wrong, because i'm lie to everyone even if i'm pretend i'm not care.. I'm need some support to cheer up, but there is no one will do.. How i'm expect someone is love me if i'm din't love my self before them..? Monday again, and i'm need be lonely fighter again.. Sigh..