病..? Sickness..?

人总在最脆弱时，
才想起他最想的人。
今天是糟糕的一天，
工作上很不开心，
身体也出毛病，
连心情也非常低落。
头痛，
胃痛，
甚至于工作弄伤，
好像要把我搞死才开心。
睡不好，
也吃不好，
在自己最不开心最失落时，
以为会有人在乎与紧张，
原来最在乎的是我自己。
生病了，
一直期待妳的问候，
但也只是我在发梦罢了。
有时候想告诉妳，
我身体越来越差了，
我好害怕喔。
算了吧，
有些事不管妳事，
知道只会带给妳困扰。
听着歌，
闭着眼，
想着妳，
对不起。
Human will think the person they most care,
when they are on weakness situation..
Last day is a horrible day,
feel unhappy for my job,
and sickness is come into me together,
made my mood become very down very down..
Headache,
gastric,
and injured when working,
look like wanna play me until i'm kiss the floor..
Can't sleep well,
and can't eat well again,
i'm thought there will have people care,
when i'm sick and down,
actually i'm the only one caring my self..
After feel sick,
i'm dreaming that you will asking,
but dreaming is totally different with reality..
There is always lying,
what i'm trying to hiding,
is meanless and pointless..
Whatever,
something you should not know,
and alwaya just is a disturb only..
Closing eye,
listen music,
miss you,
i'm sorry..

Midnight and i'm can't sleep again, feel anger to my self, why so weak why can't change and grow up.. What i'm doing always like a kid, sigh..

Midnight 00:40,
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