不敢.. Dare not..

人家说，
如果决定了改变，
就千万别怯，
因为一怯，
就什么都改变不了。
一直觉得好孤单，
感觉没有人喜欢，
却不知道自己问题出在哪里。
其实我不是不想找妳谈，
我只是怕妳嫌我烦，
过去妳都知道我是怎样的人，
你也说过我不接受答案，
所以我怎么还敢找妳烦妳。
我朋友说，
当男人，
就得要有男子气慨，
别老是想着让人喜欢，
喜欢不喜欢是由得人，
不是由得自己。
一直很想成为一个男人，
最缺乏的是责任感吧，
每次工作都不了了之，
我真的好想搞好公司，
如果自己不负责任，
公司也不会踏上成功之路。
也许等到我真的改变与成长，
才能真正的当妳朋友。
People said,
if you decide to change,
dont be afraid,
because if you did afraid,
you will never change anything..
Always felt lonely,
feel there is no one like me,
actually is there got problem of me and i'm don't know it..
I'm did know you are around and hope to find you talking,
just i'm dare not to find you and wondering you will feel annoying,
used you know what people i am,
you also know that i'm will never accept the answer not i'm wan't,
how could i'm still dare to find you if i'm feel that again..
My friend told me that,
if wan't be a man,
I need to thinking like a man,
can't always feel lonely and no one is like or care,
like me or not is decide by people,
not by my self..
Really hope i'm can be a man,
what i'm need is responsibility,
everytimes din't take responsible for my work,
even if i'm hope to made the company success,
but if i'm still always don't learn what is responsible,
i'm will never will let the company success..
Maybe you has to wait until i'm changed and grow up,
only i will able to talk with you again..

Drunk last night and feel headache morning, tell someone i'm feel not very well but people din't say anything.. What i'm act like a kid.. That the most reason i'm need to changing, i'm can't always thinking like a child, sigh.. God, please give me the strength to change..

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