在乎吗？ Care about?

一直怀疑自己是不是有病，
每次想妳时特意去忘记，
想忘记时却特别在意，
究竟我是爱妳，
或者只是纯碎喜欢妳？
当初妳说当妳不见，
我会找妳，
有点想知道如果我不见，
妳还会记得我吗？
还是妳总相信我会找妳，
而不是妳主动找我？
其实不管我表现出多坏，
背着人们写在这的一切，
妳也明白我其实装得很辛苦，
是吗？
Doubt my self is sick or what,
everytimes trying forgot you when i'm miss you,
but very care when trying to forgot you,
actually is i'm love you,
or i'm just only like you?
You said i'm will find you,
when you're gone,
feel to know what if i'm gone,
will you find me or just forgot about me?
Or you believe that i'm will find you,
before you find me?
Actually no matter how bad i'm act infront people,
behind the truth all will be writing on here,
you did understanding actually i'm acting with very suffer,
right?

A real man will done happen with clean and clear, i'm can't keep acting like a kid, always say one but did two.. Sigh, so hard to be a man.. Steady steady, i'm can made it..

Night 22:32,
Page 54,
by Kenny Yht..