家族公司.. Home company..

很多人话，
为家族企业工作，
是很幸福很幸运，
其实人们误解了，
为家族企业工作，
面对比外面沉重百倍的压力，
不是世人眼中那么幸运。
在中学求学时，
假期就会帮老爸公司工作，
几乎天天热晒雨淋，
出来社会后，
进入老爸公司打工，
没有大学学历没有工作经验，
在外人眼中很幸运，
毕竟不用为三餐烦恼。
可是打理一家公司，
不是外人能明白，
因为很多原因我不干了，
之后因为老爸年纪大了，
只能继续进回公司帮忙。
今天，
我真的心灰意冷了，
人说，
不在其位，
不谋其政。
我为了什么要拼命下去？
爸，
你可以对工人发脾气，
但是你要明白，
一个老板最重要是沉稳，
一家公司最重要是士气，
再这样下去，
连我都无法干下去，
你说你工人顶得下去吗？
如果在外做的不开心就辞职，
但是我能吗？
已经对爱情失去意义的我，
曾经想专心于事业，
可是现在这样，
我已经失败到什么动力都没了。
这也导致我飞快车的原因吧，
我实在撑不下去，
妳懂吗？
我想妳了，
就在我什么都失去时，
只能想着妳。
A lot people said that,
work as home company,
is very lucky and happy,
the fact is they misunderstanding it,
work as home company,
the pressure faced is x100 then outside company,
not happy and lucky like people saw it..
When study at secondary school,
will help dad when holidays,
most of that time need work under the sun,
after school day,
go in dad's company working,
without the experience and education background,
i'm quite lucky then other people,
no need to worry too much of money..
But manage a company,
is not easy then people said,
because of some reason i'm quit for temporary,
but going back to company,
when i'm notice dad's is old leh..
Today,
i'm really feel disppointed very very much,
people said,
don't take the job,
with the wrong position..
What the point i'm fight for?
Dad,
you may release your anger to worker,
but you really need to understand,
important for a boss is steady,
important for a company is morale,
if you still continue this way,
even if me also beh tahan,
how could you expect your worker could?
If working at outside i'm can quit if i'm work till unhappy,
but could i'm do that also now?
I'm lost everything in love,
all i'm hope is build my career,
but cause like this,
i'm lost all my point to keep fighting..
Maybe that the reason i'm keep drive fast gua,
i'm really can't hold on it anymore,
do you understand?
I'm miss you,
when i'm lost everything i have,
just can miss you far away..

It's a suffer time to me, i'm set a time frame to forgot you, i'm tried replace you with other, what i'm did is quite failed.. If human can choose to delete some memory, i'm hope delete the part of i'm fall on you, but there is no if..

Sigh, good nited and sweet dream.. I'm sorry to tell you all this again and this totally no kaitan with you, but i'm really very very... Sigh, i'm sorry..

Midnight 04:54,
Page 60,
by Kenny Yht..