阻止.. Stopping..

写与不写，
其实挣扎了几天，
很想写时，
拼命的压抑自己。
没想到的是，
我越压抑，
却越容易失落。
我知道妳看过那份给妳爷爷的信，
也知道妳知道其实是写给妳看，
信里我答应不再说离开，
所以这几天我真的沉思不已，
因为我答应不丢下妳，
而丢下妳我才能忘记对妳的感觉，
真的非常矛盾。
如果妳问我说，
我要怎样？
我还是会回答妳，
我不想丢下妳，
虽然我明白会带给妳困扰。
嗨，
对不起嗯笨蛋。
妳就原谅我那么自私的，
伤害着妳的混蛋。
Continue or stop,
fight in my heart for few days,
feel to continue writing,
but still keep stop self to start the pen..
What i'm din't expert that is,
more harder i'm stoping my self to write,
more down i'm will feel..
I'm know you read that letter i'm write to your grandpa,
also know that you actually knew i'm write to you,
in the letter i'm promise never leave again,
so i'm step confused on my mind,
because of i'm promise never leave you anymore,
but if i'm wan't forgot that feel i'm has to,
really very contradiction..
If you're asking me,
what i'm wan't to do?
I'm still same to answer you,
i'm don't wan't leave you behind anymore,
even if i'm understand that is a disturb to you..
Sigh,
i'm sorry dumb2..
Hope you will understanding and forgive,
this idiot brainless keep hurting you punye rascal..

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